A weekly blog about relationships, belief, and personal growth, written from a position of hope.
I've been ignoring a bill I received about a month ago. It was one of those "insurance paid x amount and you owe y amount" bills that comes way after the fact. I even thought it might be bogus until I double checked with the insurance company. It's legitimate. It doesn't have a due date, though, so I'm just waiting for the next notice.
It's made a great bookmark. Actually, it's a terrible bookmark. It reminds me of unfinished business, money owed, an unresolved issue. And I tuck it between the pages of what I read on a daily basis, like a self-inflicted thorn in my side. It beats paying the bill, though. Or does it?
Does filing it away, ignoring it, and postponing change the reality that money is due? Of course not. It won't go away until I pay what's due. You probably see by now where I'm going with this...
You know what needs to be done. You know what proverbial bill keeps getting moved to the next chapter, holding its place in your story, reminding you of what's not resolved.
Make the call. Mend the relationship. Pay the bill. Get your oil changed. Apologize. Ask for forgiveness. Put up the laundry that's been in the basket for a week. Whatever it is. You know what needs to be done. And I guarantee you'll enjoy this chapter a lot more when you do.
You haven't missed your calling
From where I sit in this hospital waiting room
Accept the invitation to live
The lighted window
It was worth it
The subtle sounds of a life together
Made for the now-what
When holidays are hard
Sharing in our suffering
To my doubting friend
Ten years down the road
How long, Lord?
A season of doubt