A weekly blog about relationships, belief, and personal growth, written from a position of hope.
I had the fun opportunity to go to the beach this past weekend. It was a great time to rest, reflect, refocus, recharge. In the process of unplugging, I started thinking about how incredibly grateful I am, yet I still feel the temptation to look at a previous period of my life or a future possibility as more desirable than where I am now.
When I was in high school I longed for the freedom of college. When I was in college I yearned for the work load of high school and the monetary perks of a career after college. Now that my primary pursuit is a career, I dream of the days of a college schedule and minimal responsibility, or wish it was five years from now when we are more established financially.
Lacie and I often say things that begin with, "One day when we have more money, then __________." We have lots of goals and dreams: travel more, be more generous with our time and money, add on to our house, etc. Those are all good things, but too often I attach my happiness to the attainment of goals and miss the beauty in the process.
It's okay to be driven and goal-oriented. It's important to remember the good times and let nostalgia run its course. But our joy is in a threatening environment when the past and the future hold our strongest feelings.
"Today is my favorite day, and right now is my favorite time," our company's past president always said. His philosophy was that a person who is grateful is always growing. I believe that. Being stuck in the past and waiting for the future both drain life from the present, and I want to flourish, regardless of how today compares to any other day.
In sales I've heard numerous times, "You must be activity-focused and results-oriented." I want to dream big but mainly be attached to the process. Some days this is a hard truth...I want it now. I want more clients now. I want relationships mended now. More financial freedom now...
I think back to the best moments from this past weekend at the beach. I think about what I want to achieve by the end of this year. I think about what today holds. They are all valuable, and I am grateful in this moment.
You haven't missed your calling
From where I sit in this hospital waiting room
Accept the invitation to live
The lighted window
It was worth it
The subtle sounds of a life together
Made for the now-what
When holidays are hard
Sharing in our suffering
To my doubting friend
Ten years down the road
How long, Lord?
A season of doubt